Some thoughts on making major life changes and a caution: do NOT rely on ANYONE for support, ESPECIALLY family, while you are making any major life changes.
I'm sharing this personal experience in hopes that it will help someone else who is attempting to quit a bunch of vices and overhaul their life. It can get super rough and very painful and emotionally draining, especially if you happen to be an empath. But I have unwavering faith that everything happens for a reason and will work out the way it is supposed to, so hopefully my experiences can help others to develop that same kind of faith.
Anytime you change your body's chemistry (i.e. suddenly quitting one or more vices you've relied on for emotional comfort and/or escape since age 12 and/or 21, respectively), there is bound to be a period of adjustment for the physical body, especially in conjunction with losing almost 70 pounds and releasing anything and everything that may have been stored in those fat cells.
Now there are complaints that I'm "bitchier than usual." Well, DUH!!! Not only is my entire body and lifestyle currently changing (all good things that are getting ZERO support from certain people; instead I am being accused of all sorts of fucked up shit), but this is happening with full support and partnership/accountability from only ONE person, whom my entire family insists on hating and talking shit about.
Let me clear some things up right now.
1. NO. I am NOT "doing cocaine," and that happens to be one thing I've never even tried despite having had opportunities to. The only substances you will find in my system right now are marijuana and caffeine.
Never mind that I spent the last 7 months BEING DISCIPLINED (just like you people were bitching at me to be for years) and creating and building positive DAILY habits that members of my family are trying to tear down now. Instead of being happy for me about losing almost 70 pounds, I get accused of doing cocaine. Very lovely. Way to piss on all my hard work. SMH.
2. Meditation is NOT a form of satanism, witchcraft, or invoking evil spirits or demonic possession.
3. Just because I'm eating clean, organic food, have lost weight, and am now uber-focused on work instead of being everyone's vent-rant-punching bag doll does NOT equal having been brainwashed (which, by the way, has been said about numerous boyfriends I've had in the past... God forbid I learn and grow as a person or find someone on a similar wavelength as me; instead, I MUST be being brainwashed because I don't buy the indoctrination that is organized religion anymore. My fucking bad.).
Are you currently in the middle of a messy life change or series of changes? What are some of the resisting factors you've come across? How did you handle it and how did it turn out?
How much of a part in your success do you feel that FAITH played for you? How important would you say morale, faith, and positive support are while you're working toward major changes?
Please comment below with your experiences, send me an email, or link to your own blog post about making difficult changes in your life. If you've beaten any kind of addiction, be proud of yourself! Do what you know is right for you despite the naysayers.
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