I have officially been a non-smoker for 2 weeks and am now on step 2 of the nicotine patch kit to help my body get rid of its pesky nicotine addiction. (As one of my friends said, "Oh lord, you're one of those people now, aren't you?" LOL)
Now this next part makes me feel kinda stupid. It's okay, though, because the discovery was an awesome happy moment today that's continuing to make me smile every time I hear it, hehehe =).
About a week ago, I met with my mom at one of our local gift shops, The Holly Hut. I've been wanting a wind chime forever now, and I was checking out some of the amazing ones in the shop.
Now, the bigger ones that sound super awesome are about $100 to $150 each, but those things are huge and I can't afford one of those right now. BUT... I found a really cute one while I was browsing that says, "Treasure LITTLE Things!" at the top. It's got some glass beads and butterflies hanging from it, and I've been leaving the back door cracked so I can listen to it =).
It might just be me, but I've always thought there was something poetic about the number seven. Seven days in a week, seven deadly sins, seven tears, dog years....
It's funny because I've been so much more productive and have been reading a lot more because every time I find I want to smoke a cigarette, I pick up a book. I read an entire novella today and posted a review, am on the verge of finishing another book, and have a whole stack of books that I can still read sitting to the right of me.
I don't think I've read this much since I was pregnant with my oldest daughter... lol, gee, wonder what happened?
It feels nice to feel like I have enough time to do the things I want to do. I was constantly feeling like I couldn't get everything done. Who knew it was because I was spending so much time inhaling smoke?
I keep getting Tori Amos stuck in my head. "She's addicted to nicotine patches...."
Aside from that, the days have been good. I'm way more productive now that I don't smoke that it's almost ridiculous. I have more energy, more focus... I feel like my brain is finally working better again.
This is fantastic news because I can finally really write again! Hooray!!!
Now for the bad news. I locked myself out of my e-mail and forgot my purse at a friend's last night, so now I don't have my anti-depressants.... BUT she's dropping off my purse and I already contacted Hotmail to let them know what's up. I just have to wait a little while for now, but after checking my list of things I didn't finish yesterday, I realized I can do all of that without my e-mail, so... more good news =).
The last time I tried to quit smoking, I tried to do it cold turkey. I bought a shelf to build to keep myself busy and worked on it.
I spent about 8 hours teary-eyed and crying that day, had an unbelievable urge to cut off my toes, and made my kids' lives miserable. It was a bad day! I ended up smoking before the night was over.
This time, I have a plan... and I prepared myself over the past few days, mentally and physically.
Yesterday, I did not smoke right after I ate, and I did that on purpose. I also smoked less than 5 cigarettes all day yesterday, which made it much easier for me to realize I can do this.